My love life is very much messed up these days.
After going through a couple of dates with enthusiasm, I’ll swear not to go on any after the ones I went out with, didn’t muster up to my expectations.
I love him but I HATE him too.
I hate his attitude.
I hate his behavior.
Now, im slowly, quietly & silently walk out from his life without his knowledge.
I deserve someone better. yea, i know.
If he loves me, i want him to run after me & catch me.
I'm tired of running after him. exhausted.
I just can’t bear the recurring heartbreak and unfulfilled hope, but then again the thought of somewhere out there is someone who is ‘perfect’ for me and someone who might be searching for me, that’s what kept me going still.
=...(
it's been 3 days not a single word of "sayang" uttered to me.
=..(
didn't he love me?
or
im just being so emo.
im happy that my bfyen found a new job.
the job looks wonderful coz "they" allowed the Muslims to pray.
no shifts. fixed time. and it's a 5 day/week job. *two thumbs up*
syukur alhamdulillah.
may this job gives bfyen many returns..insya ALLAH.
everytym i think about bfyen past..tears keep on rolling down my puffy cheeks.
especially when bfyen acting this way towards me, my feelings get worst.
how i wish he knows what i feel now.
how i wish i can let my heart out.
how i wish i can tell him the truth. my wants!
usually i wud see bfyen at my workplace.
miss his presence.
on my way home, i would smile in my heart thinking & reminisced the memories we've created.
sitting at the busstop alone, it's
killing me
!i spent my lunch time reading on his previous sms-es.
=)
i miss my
sayang!
maybe i should be patience.
maybe i should be more understanding.
maybe i should control my emotions.
hehehe.
my first time werking on hari raya morning.
We went to my nyai&ya'i house at serangoon, 1st house.
Back at home, waited for my mommie big family.
Jalan2 Hari Raya.
Enjoy the photos =)
i had a fa-buu-lous day!
