“Betul dia masih single tapikan dia ramai peminat tau..”

That’s what my close friend told me when I asked about someone.

When she said “single” I was very relieved at least he’s not yet taken/attached but when she continued “dia ramai peminat” i was having the worst emotion. My world is crashing down on me. My high hope destroyed completely.

I always think he’s the best. I always have high hope and dream to be with him. We used to be very close to each other but as years goes by we’re getting further and further from each other. I’m always thinking of him even though im out with other friends.

Hmmmm…“ramai peminat” meaning there’ slot of people who admire him and wants to be with him. I’m one of them too but it looks like I can’t strive for it. He’s completely good, nice and everything. I’m sure his “peminat” are far much better compared to me. His peminat might be his cup of tea, someone more suitable and compatible to be with him. Unlike me, I’m just an average girl who I think he will never consider someone like me, I guess im just a little peanut compared to almond, cashew or pistachios.

Sometimes the things that you really want all this while you can have it. The kind of feeling that I have for him is simply very unique. It’s my fault too, I used to have the chance but I ruined it. At that moment im so naïve. There’s no use crying over spilled milk. But its not the end of the world, we can still try to make it right. I know I have a lot of competitor Insya ALLAH I can make it.

Now, my senjata will always continue with my duaa and istikharah. May ALLAH show me what is good for me. Tak banyak yang aku minta hanya seseorang yang lebih mendekatkan dirinya pada ALLAH, boleh mendidik, menegur dan menasihati I ilmu ugama- jalan yang baik, jujur, ikhlas dalam apa jua yang dilakukan dan menerima diri ku seadanya. Cukuplah. Itu lah doa setiap dalam sujud akhir istikharah ku.

But if he’s not meant for me, I will always redha dengan ketentuanya. I will always keep on going no matter what.

“Wanita-wanita yang keji adalah untuk laki-laki yang keji, dan laki-laki yang keji adalah buat wanita-wanita yang keji (pula), dan wanita-wanita yang baik adalah untuk laki-laki yang baik dan laki-laki yang baik adalah untuk wanita-wanita yang baik (pula)”.
(An Nuur : 26)

Bila ingin mendapatkan jodoh yang baik, maka perbaikilah diri. Hiduplah sesuai ajaran Islam dan Sunnah Nabi-Nya. Jadilah laki-laki yang sholeh, jadilah wanita yang sholehah. Semoga Allah memberikan hanya yang baik buat kita. Amin.

I shall leave my past behind. Masanya untuk lalui perjalanan dengan lebih sempurna dan bermkana. Masa silam itu juga untuk kita mengingatkan setiap langkah kita lalui harus dengan bijaksana. Good Bye PAST…Welcome PRESENT!!